So they say your first year is the hardest...
I am finding this out very, very quickly. Up to this point in my career, I haven't had too many issues that had me feeling down or downright frustrated. I have experienced the "normal" issues that first year drivers will face and I have pushed through them. Yet last Thursday when I found out I would be going into yet another truck (as my truck had a pretty substantial transmission leak) I became frustrated, started feeling down and was even downright mad. I'm here in Indy at 3:30 AM (as I write this) at a bus terminal waiting for my last part of the trip to Vandalia, OH to pick up another truck.
These are the times that I can see why driver turnover is in the 100% range for the larger trucking companies. I consider myself a pretty level headed guy. But, this time I'm searching for all my patience I have inside to not just give in. I am someone who has that internal drive to succeed and fulfill my promises. So feeling the way I mentioned above has me really internally checking down all the good things that have happened to me over the last 6 months since I started my journey as a solo OTR truck driver. I have convinced myself the way to go here is to stay more calm...more calm than what my personality usually can stand. This is just another bump in the road on my way to my year completion. Just another detour that I can't use my GPS to get around. I am using my internal GPS and working the thing in my head they call my brain to sort all this out.
I want to be on the road. This is where I am the most happy. I should be able to get back out on the road soon, I'm hoping that happens in a day or two. This is the plan up to this point. The easy way out for me would be to be that guy who thinks, "the grass is always greener on the other side of the highway." In reality, it's not. These things happen and I'm new... I am just soooooo not used to it. I don't like it, but I am a new trucker and I'm learning the way things work outside of being on the road. So the proverbial wall I have hit will be gone soon. Hopefully replaced with some good time on the road.
For the newbies out there, remember what I'm going through when it happens to you. It won't be perfect and it won't go the way you want it to go, but push through it. Don't give up and get that year in. Change comes easier if you do it the right way and I'm bound and determined to do it right way...even with my internal struggle to want these things to go differently. I also keep reminding myself that certain people warned me about stuff like this happening and now it is. To act like I haven't heard this before or make believe I didn't think it would happen to me isn't the right way to go here.
So I'm hoping my next blog will be on the road where I want to be. I'll get more positive and let all the new guys out there know that, after the bad, the good comes back. Let's hope!!
Take care and be safe out there,